"If I could buy my reasoning, I'd pay to lose"

I am posting this week's Friday traditio a bit early. It is Talk Talk's "It's My Life."

"Happiness in reality consists only in rest, and not in being stirred up. This instinct conflicts with the drive to diversion, and we develop the confused idea that leads people to aim at rest through excitement" Dallas Willard

Funny how I blind myself, I never knew
If I was sometimes played upon, afraid to lose